Recently I had a fun event with my car getting busted into. My passenger window was completely destroyed and they stole my mp3, cables, charger, and so on. I had a couple friends help me clean out the bigger glass chunks, and the owner of the gallery i was at helped me tape it closed.

I made a discovery about my life that night, it sucks. Almost complete strangers helped me clean up this mess so called friends say "that sucks." Right now I am out about $250 to get everything replaced. Not to mention I am considered unemployed so I have no source of income to pay for this.

Lucky I might not have to pay for the window, but the stolen property was worth a lot to me. Not even with money, all the songs on there were a part of my life I probably won't get back. Majority of those songs I didn't have the cds to, and don't believe in illegally downloading. I got them from new friends and different computers. It was like a story book of the people I have met.

I just realize how alone I really am in this world. Everyone I tend to hang out with seems to only care about themselves. Very rarely do I get calls asking to spend time with me. Normally when I do it's because someone needs a ride, cigarettes, or wants to do drugs. Some people I even tend to ignore calls from because all they do is ride their misery on me, most of the time on the use of drugs and alcohol.

I am tired of being peoples' plaything, I am tired of being God's little toy. I don't think I will even get my share of life. Everytime I get a taste of something good in this life it is always taken away from me. I know life isn't fair, but it shouldn't try and drive me back to insanity.

Depression is a bitch.