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Alone

Fri Feb 6, 2009, 1:31 AM
Recently I had a fun event with my car getting busted into. My passenger window was completely destroyed and they stole my mp3, cables, charger, and so on. I had a couple friends help me clean out the bigger glass chunks, and the owner of the gallery i was at helped me tape it closed.

I made a discovery about my life that night, it sucks. Almost complete strangers helped me clean up this mess so called friends say "that sucks." Right now I am out about $250 to get everything replaced. Not to mention I am considered unemployed so I have no source of income to pay for this.

Lucky I might not have to pay for the window, but the stolen property was worth a lot to me. Not even with money, all the songs on there were a part of my life I probably won't get back. Majority of those songs I didn't have the cds to, and don't believe in illegally downloading. I got them from new friends and different computers. It was like a story book of the people I have met.

I just realize how alone I really am in this world. Everyone I tend to hang out with seems to only care about themselves. Very rarely do I get calls asking to spend time with me. Normally when I do it's because someone needs a ride, cigarettes, or wants to do drugs. Some people I even tend to ignore calls from because all they do is ride their misery on me, most of the time on the use of drugs and alcohol.

I am tired of being peoples' plaything, I am tired of being God's little toy. I don't think I will even get my share of life. Everytime I get a taste of something good in this life it is always taken away from me. I know life isn't fair, but it shouldn't try and drive me back to insanity.

Depression is a bitch.

  • Mood: Depressed
  • Listening to: Spitting - Modest Mouse
  • Reading: Brave New World
  • Watching: SuperJail!
  • Playing: LittleBigPlanet
  • Eating: Tolberone
  • Drinking: Dr. Pepper

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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Wichita
  • Interests: Drama, Anime, Fencing, Science, Psychology
  • Favourite movie: A streetcar Named Desire
  • Favourite band or musician: Bloc Party., NIN, Dimmu Borgir, The Honorary Title, Disturbed, David Bowie, etc.
  • Favourite genre of music: Rock
  • Favourite artist: Clive Barker
  • Favourite poet or writer: HP Lovecraft
  • Favourite style of art: Anthromorphic
  • Operating System: Linux
  • MP3 player of choice: Amarok
  • Wallpaper of choice: Default
  • Skin of choice: Furry
  • Favourite game: Portal
  • Favourite gaming platform: XBOX 360
  • Favourite cartoon character: Nny
  • Personal Quote: When you've got it, flaunt it.
  • Tools of the Trade: Thread, needle, and my hands

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Thanks for the fav :)
No problem. It is really cute. ^^

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thx 4 the watch!

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watch the WHOLE thing, i dare ya! :pointr: [link]

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the video? just try watching it at night and you'll see how truly scary it is. :paranoid:

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